Pressure
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"He never really forced me to have sex, I don’t think. Like um sometimes there was pressure to, but I never thought 'Oh if I say no, he’s gonna force it on me.' It was like if I say no he’s gonna stop. Like he might be a little horny and sad about it, but he won’t get violent. It was also never 100% okay to be like 'Nah, I don’t want to, not tonight'."
"But there was a point where he, one of them - well actually, a friend of mine, totally took advantage of me. Like stripped my pants off of me, and you know started doing things to me. I have a vague memory of it, um I didn’t really know what was going on. So and for, for the longest time, I kinda like held that against myself. Like 'Oh that was totally your fault, you could’ve prevented that if you were just not so dumb.'"